Turtle must fight!

The last few days has been a horrible time for me....

My turtle fell very sick (because I didnt put alot of time on him lately), my shipment was stuck at custom and I have tons of work piling up. It was suppose to be a restful time for me because I had to clear 3 days of leave but I think those 3 days are probably the "stress-est" days for this year -_-"

Turtle has been sick for a while, not wanting to eat and all. I tend to him daily and change water every other day and he became active again but still not eating. Then he fell really ill because when I try to change water, he didn't even want to be in water. I was devastated and didn't know what to do! It was Monday and I thought turtle wouldn't pull through Tuesday. Luckily a friend told me about an aquatic vet at Jalan Kayu so I rush down after work to bring turtle there. Turtle was given some antiseptic for some red rashes and wound and 2 injections. The vet say he is very skinny too. Then she prescribe medication for turtle for a week and to bring turtle back a week after.

Turtle was given antiseptic medication to apply everyday and also antibiotics and vitamins which have to be administrated via injection!! Gosh, I'm so scare of needles myself and I have to give injection to turtle! It was so scary and the first injection was so horrible. I didnt poke the needle deep enough and I try to push the needle in but it wont go in. Not knowing what to do, I just push the syringe in. I think my hands were shaking throughout the time. Then I saw that the injection gave turtle a lump. This is probably because the needle wasn't deep enough and the medication was not injected in his muscles (it's an intramuscular injection). I panic and called the clinic and I couldn't make myself clear because I was so upset. The person tell me it's alright and try to calm me down.

I was close to tear and I felt so guilty to have put turtle through this. As the time for the 2nd injection for the day drew closer, I was getting all nervous again. So I did abit of googling hoping to find some information on giving injections. I tried using a needle to poke on a cushion to practice and to psych myself up for it. Finally I tried it the 2nd time and the needle went in deep in one motion, I was so relieved. But the next few days I still have some misses on the injection but I know if it's not deep enough I have to pull it out. Poor turtle, his butt must be covered with tiny needle marks now (2 to 3 jabs a day for 5 days).

But he made some progression. He is now in water with a heater and he seem to be more responsive to his surroundings. But he has yet to start eating again. I pray he will get well soon so that he can move over to my new place and Ah Seng can also help take care of him.

This is turtle 5 years ago... He is now much bigger
Pray that he will get well soon...he still have a long way to go with me

Friends

You cannot choose your family but you can choose your friends.

Lately I'm beginning to think who are my real friends?
What qualify someone as a real friend (to me)?

I think everyone has their own definition of what real friends are and subconsciously we will compare the people around us with this definition and determine who are the real friends.

I wonder if it is because I had the one Best friend before and subconsciously she became the "friendship yardstick". If that's really the case, am I being unfair to compare them with her?

Instead of going on and on about this in my head, I shall pen it down what is bothering me and hopefully leave it here.

I hate it when someone make plans with me and then call it off last min because she has some other (better) plans or just decided she is too lazy to come out. Once or twice is fine but if you do it often, it is not acceptable. I'm not a back-up plan.

I hate people who tell white lies perpetually and cannot keep the promises they make. Honesty in friendship is important.

I hate it when people sweet talk you and tell you how important you are to them. Action speaks louder than words. I've been stupid to believe these words all these time. Don't say I'm your closest friend and I'm the only person you can confide in when the very next day you've told the same thing to half a dozen other people.

I hate it when people expect you to inconvenient yourself even though I'm already extending them a favor. I bloody hate to walk out to pass people things I help them buy. I try to make plans out of the way for me to make things easy for them. It is not acceptable to be late twice in a day and expect me to ditch my dinner plans and go to them. A 'Sorry' SMS is NOT ENOUGH! Don't expect me to help again when you didn't even realize why I'm so angry.

I hate it when people call you super late at night or super early in the morning. If it's not important, you can leave it to a more "human" time to call.

I hate it when people expect pressies from me but didn't think of giving back and hands you recycled gifts. It's a give and take relationship. I can be generous but I'm not here to be taken advantage of. Friends just don't do that.

If I'm not talking to you, it probably mean I am re-thinking our friendship.