Turtle must fight!

The last few days has been a horrible time for me....

My turtle fell very sick (because I didnt put alot of time on him lately), my shipment was stuck at custom and I have tons of work piling up. It was suppose to be a restful time for me because I had to clear 3 days of leave but I think those 3 days are probably the "stress-est" days for this year -_-"

Turtle has been sick for a while, not wanting to eat and all. I tend to him daily and change water every other day and he became active again but still not eating. Then he fell really ill because when I try to change water, he didn't even want to be in water. I was devastated and didn't know what to do! It was Monday and I thought turtle wouldn't pull through Tuesday. Luckily a friend told me about an aquatic vet at Jalan Kayu so I rush down after work to bring turtle there. Turtle was given some antiseptic for some red rashes and wound and 2 injections. The vet say he is very skinny too. Then she prescribe medication for turtle for a week and to bring turtle back a week after.

Turtle was given antiseptic medication to apply everyday and also antibiotics and vitamins which have to be administrated via injection!! Gosh, I'm so scare of needles myself and I have to give injection to turtle! It was so scary and the first injection was so horrible. I didnt poke the needle deep enough and I try to push the needle in but it wont go in. Not knowing what to do, I just push the syringe in. I think my hands were shaking throughout the time. Then I saw that the injection gave turtle a lump. This is probably because the needle wasn't deep enough and the medication was not injected in his muscles (it's an intramuscular injection). I panic and called the clinic and I couldn't make myself clear because I was so upset. The person tell me it's alright and try to calm me down.

I was close to tear and I felt so guilty to have put turtle through this. As the time for the 2nd injection for the day drew closer, I was getting all nervous again. So I did abit of googling hoping to find some information on giving injections. I tried using a needle to poke on a cushion to practice and to psych myself up for it. Finally I tried it the 2nd time and the needle went in deep in one motion, I was so relieved. But the next few days I still have some misses on the injection but I know if it's not deep enough I have to pull it out. Poor turtle, his butt must be covered with tiny needle marks now (2 to 3 jabs a day for 5 days).

But he made some progression. He is now in water with a heater and he seem to be more responsive to his surroundings. But he has yet to start eating again. I pray he will get well soon so that he can move over to my new place and Ah Seng can also help take care of him.

This is turtle 5 years ago... He is now much bigger
Pray that he will get well soon...he still have a long way to go with me

Friends

You cannot choose your family but you can choose your friends.

Lately I'm beginning to think who are my real friends?
What qualify someone as a real friend (to me)?

I think everyone has their own definition of what real friends are and subconsciously we will compare the people around us with this definition and determine who are the real friends.

I wonder if it is because I had the one Best friend before and subconsciously she became the "friendship yardstick". If that's really the case, am I being unfair to compare them with her?

Instead of going on and on about this in my head, I shall pen it down what is bothering me and hopefully leave it here.

I hate it when someone make plans with me and then call it off last min because she has some other (better) plans or just decided she is too lazy to come out. Once or twice is fine but if you do it often, it is not acceptable. I'm not a back-up plan.

I hate people who tell white lies perpetually and cannot keep the promises they make. Honesty in friendship is important.

I hate it when people sweet talk you and tell you how important you are to them. Action speaks louder than words. I've been stupid to believe these words all these time. Don't say I'm your closest friend and I'm the only person you can confide in when the very next day you've told the same thing to half a dozen other people.

I hate it when people expect you to inconvenient yourself even though I'm already extending them a favor. I bloody hate to walk out to pass people things I help them buy. I try to make plans out of the way for me to make things easy for them. It is not acceptable to be late twice in a day and expect me to ditch my dinner plans and go to them. A 'Sorry' SMS is NOT ENOUGH! Don't expect me to help again when you didn't even realize why I'm so angry.

I hate it when people call you super late at night or super early in the morning. If it's not important, you can leave it to a more "human" time to call.

I hate it when people expect pressies from me but didn't think of giving back and hands you recycled gifts. It's a give and take relationship. I can be generous but I'm not here to be taken advantage of. Friends just don't do that.

If I'm not talking to you, it probably mean I am re-thinking our friendship.

My last "single" night

I'm getting married tomorrow, so from tomorrow onwards, I will be known as "Mrs Seng"...... hmmm.... on second thought, maybe not.....

Our relationship officially started on 22 May 2007 and after 3 years and 5 months of dating, we are tying the knot on the 22 Oct 2010.

So why is Ah Seng the one for me?

1) He cares alot for me (always nag at me to go shower, eat and sleep)
2) We share the same lame sense of humor (Both love Stephen Chow)
3) He is a very smart guy (of course, if not why he fell for me in the first place LOL)
4) He bathes my stuff toys
5) He is there for me whenever I need someone
6) He is a nerd that rides a bike
7) He makes me laugh (Very very important)
8) He usually let me have my ways (without spoiling me)
9) He says "take your time" when I'm running late
10) He is simply Seng-sational *BTW I coined that word one hor*

Here's to our 3 years of dating....

Ah Seng waits for me every morning to go work together

Oooh, I even have a comic Strip!!


嗨，我是Ah Seng


呃，好像有声音...


奇怪,怎么没人...


哇哇哇!! 原来在我后面...

hahaha......

Ah Seng!! 明天我要嫁给你啦!!

Happy No Enough

My eyes are hurting from staring at the computer screen for the whole day but here I am staring at the small netbook screen typing this.

I'm so tired today and I had a really bad day at work.
I think the worst thing is when you have to rush something out quickly, there's always something/someone holding you back (I fantasize throwing durians at these ppl!!).

Now back home, I can't seem to find something to do that will make me feel better. I think about what's happening in my life and I realise I'm not excited about anything.

I'm getting the keys to my house tomorrow and I'm getting ROM this month but to me these involve alot of work!! I don't see anything enjoyable about these events and I think I'm beginning to resent it.

I just feel I have absolutely nothing to look forward to....

Does this sound suicidal?

I'm quite sure I'm not.

Maybe I just used up all my excite-ed airtime when I'm younger so this is what I become...

Sometimes I just want to be special....

You think you know someone but later found out you may not really know the person as well as you thought you did.

Perhaps the other side of him you found out isn't something bad but somehow the realization of another side that you never knew made you feel a little "cheated".
Perhaps I'm deluded and came to a conclusion that I wanted, that's why I'm a little upset when I found out that I'm wrong. It's not the person's fault but why do I feel a little resentful towards him?

He never told me I'm special before and I made myself sound like I'm special to him and I believed it. Now I'm starting to doubt if I'm really that special to him.

Is it an illness to need to feel special to someone?
Is it wrong to want to be the most special person to someone?

Why do I get blamed for wanting to feel special?


Okie this is where I end my little indulging-time to feel sad...
Life goes on...

I will not die if no one makes me feel special.

Insights I hope I will remember

My colleagues and I was on a course on "Stress Management". The reason why we chose this course was mainly the dates were suitable for us and it falls under the right category of training tat we needed. I didnt expect to gain much out of it because I personally think I'm not a very stress-ed person.

Perhaps God wanted to "prepare" me for the course so I had an extremely stressful morning. First I didnt sleep enough, I had to wake up earlier because I needed to clear my harddisk to get some files from Mable. But there was just too much file to transfer and after much struggle, I still didnt manage to clear the harddisk =(
Then I had a tummy ache so I left the house like 20mins later than I had planned to. But the worst has got to be the train journey. I've been very pampered because Ah Seng sends me to work everyday but even if I had to take train to work, it's on the non-crowded direction so I dun have to squeeze myself into the train. Today I had to travel opposite direction and it was HORRIBLE!!!! Goodness, I know alot of ppl complain about the crazy crowd in the morning but I didnt think that much of it until this morning. Anyway by the time I reached the coffee shop, I was all sweaty and was told I have only 10mins to eat my breakfast *sobz*

So during the course, the facilitator actually told write down what kind of stress we are facing and to share with out neighbours and everyone shared alittle. I realise people of all ages experience different stress. Some shared they are actually stressed about retirement. It could be because they worry they do not have enough money for retirement etc. For me I think I'm stressed because I have to do alot of things all at one go and I'm spreading myself thin that I don't feel I'm accomplishing anything.
Later the facilitator also shared about the symptoms of stress etc and there was alot of sharing on stories of people he knew.

I didnt think alot into all these until I met Mable for dinner.

I was sharing casually on what I learnt and suddenly it stuck me that actually my Mum can be very stressed.

Okie, just some background on my Mum. I've never really publicly shared this but my mum is actually one of the greatest source of stress for me. First I would like to say tat my Mum is a responsible mum who cooks, cleans and do all the necessary things for the household. But she is a very negative and unhappy person.
She is always complaining about how unfair was being treated by my dad's side relatives, how people are all selfish, how she is taken granted for, how miserable her life is. She is always grumbling and whining about everything and I just dont want to hear all these things. So I always shut myself in my room when I'm home and my door is the safety barrier from her. I love my mum but I feel that because of she is always so angry with everyone and everything, it stops me from wanting to
communicate with her regularly.

Having said these, I suddenly realise that what my mum said is a sign of stress.

First, she is always insecure of how little money she has and feel that she has to save very hard for old age. To me, all I hear is about money money money and it sorta turns me off. But I realise it is not about the money, she is worry about having no one to take care of her when she old and does not have the mean to provide for herself.
Now that I've recognize that, I want to make it a point to assure her that me and my bro will definitely take care of her because it is our duty to do so.

Then she complain about all the bad things that happen to her and how everyone makes her feel unhappy. I always scold her for telling me all these old stories and tell her to stop telling me all these things, I'm so sick of hearing the same thing over and over again. Instead of responding negatively to her complains, I should make her focus on the blessings she has instead. I think all of us need to be reminded of what we have and taken it for granted.

She always feel that she is being taken for granted for the things she do for the family. To be honest, I am guilty of taking my mum's work for granted. So how should I make it up to her? My solution: to wash plates whenever I see then in the sink and leave her a note to say I understand these housework are a chore and I shoudn't have taken it for granted. Hopefully tat will show some appreciation la.

Wish me luck implementing those things I've came up with =D

Oh ya, I'm so happy I manage to picked up the Strawberry Body Butter from the bodyshop sale!!

My Loot!! Paid like $40plus abit for all these!!!


My Bday pressie from Mable!!!

500G harddisk, I was just contemplating buying one during comex lor...
Hehe....so blessed right...

OKie need to sleep already, tomorrow another day of "stress management" course.

Peace Out

Sian post

Haruki Murakami is one of Ah Seng's favourite author, so I wanted to read for myself and see what's the "fuss" all about. Initially Ah Seng lent me the short "stories" and I remember reading one or two stories and I think what strikes me most is the simplicity of the subject matter. It's something so common that happens around us that we usually do not give it a second thought. But when you read it, you think "hey, I know what's he is talking about..."

But just like most of the books I read...I usually read only halfway... (haha)

So my new quest is Murakami's "What I Talk about When I Talk about Running".
I thought this book would be an interesting read since I think I do qualify as a "runner" having spent most of my school days training and competing in running events. I'm just a couple of pages into it and all I have to say "so far so good".

Oh just want to do abit of the "blogging-on-my-mundane-life-events-which-usually-includes-some-random-meaningless-photos"....

My new toy!!
Fuji Instanx Mini7S
I love instant photos!! Uselessly small but it's cool because it's INSTANT



My Polar Heart Rate monitor that I bought during Sundown Marathon's roadshow
Been contemplating to get one for a long time...
I think I need something to inject some fun to my runs
Maybe I will write more about it when I learn how to use it



Oh ya, my first Sundown Marathon!!
Yay!! I did it again!!
But their organization for this event is probably the worst I had to go through!
The only redeeming point is it's Sun Down...no sun
I want to join standard chartered but they close the early bird on it's last day!!
Dammit!! I have to pay $75 now argh

But I think doing 2 marathons in a year is something new I can achieve for 2010!!

Bring it on!!!

Friend...

Well, I was clearing my drawer (like I always am) and I came across this little piggy bookmark with the following words:

知己

朋友无需多
能让你珍惜的
即使是一位
也是幸福的

When I was younger, friends are very important to me. My life revolves around friends then it became boyfriend and myself. Does people in general grew to be more selfish as we start to grow up?

Looking back at the friendship I had and is still having.... it's amazing how many people has cross path with me. People I met in school, in church, in sports, at work and even online. Once in a while, I take time to go through my old photos, reminiscing the good times I've share with these people.

But she's always the one who will pop into my mind and talking about what we've done will almost always bring tears to my eyes. Knowing her make me a 幸福 person as our friendship is definitely one I will treasure and always hold dear to my heart.

It is true that life goes on without you but I think my life changed the moment you left.
Watching shows with good friends being there to comfort each other and having fun together always make sad and jealous =(

And now I have to grow old and grow fat by myself -_-"

My new running shoes!

3 year back, I was wondering if I should get my orange DS trainer 11 or the newer & uglier DS trainer 12.... Read here

Let's just say that the orange one is no longer as "bright" as it used to be now...
Time to get a new pair of shoes...

If you find a shoe model that fits you, You should ALWAYS get it back.. I'm extremely please with DS trainer because it fits my slightly high arch and it's like a cross a trainer and racer. It has great cushioning but not as bulky as those heavy-duty trainer ones.

Went to queensway shopping center yesterday (it's like ages since I went there!!) with Marcus and Zhonghan. I knew I'm going to get a DS trainer but when I was there I was presented with 2 versions of DS trainers again!!

DS trainer 14
It has green with white, red with black and pink with black
The colors with black is really not my type -_-"



DS Trainer 15 in only this color

If you realize, the 2 pairs have hardly any difference. The sole is almost similar too!! but the cheapest I found is $130 for DS trainer 14 (the green one) and $175 for DS Trainer 15 (the pink one). Kinda hard to make the decision....

Finally I decided to settled for DS trainer 15 since I know I buy shoes like once every 2 yrs only...haha I think I seriously need to clock more mileage!!

Oh, my breakfast is here!! Shall end here abruptly as I always do...

Tata


PS/ I'm hunting for a flat now, more abt that later!!

Ranting about nothing

I don't if what I'm feeling now is call "loneliness"...

Wikipedia says:
"Loneliness is a feeling in which people experience a strong sense of emptiness and solitude."

Hmph... what exactly is sense of emptiness?
Feeling that you have nothing to look forward to or that nothing stirs your emotions (in a gd way of course)?

Well, I do have things that I'm looking forward to, like my next holiday, my next crazy shopping spree and of course movies like Iron Man 2 and Ip Man 2 *LOL*

I think what I'm feeling is that sometimes I feel like I have no one to talk to. I spend alot alot alot ALLLOTTTTT of time online but even though your MSN contact list can be very long, do you feel that there's no one in particular that you want to start a chat with? Or am I just that unfriendly?? hmph.....

Or perhaps all these I'm feeling is just part and parcel of an adult's life...
Anyway just wanted to "rant" abit here.....


And yes!!!

WHAT'S WITH SINGAPORE'S WEATHER!!!!!!

it's raining and yet it's sosososososososos HOT

*Faintz*

我要做超人！

haha... okie the title of this post is super random *bleah*

However, if I can have a 超人 power, I want to be a supernatural sense of indifference towards things at work. I think my skin become so bad because of the "buay song-ness" that comes from work. *tears*

Anyway, one of the resolution this year is for me to tame my temper abit at work *LOL*

So to help me achieve this goal, I've penned a 13字 真经！

Check it out here...

Directions: Repeat until you feel the "inner peace" again
& Pardon my ugly handwriting


Okie to make my post title a little more relevant...

Here's picture I found online
which is also now my MSN display picture!!

红内裤小叮当!!

My Tissue Cover

Was working on my Beijing Trip post last week?
I think it's going to take a long time till my memory fail me to finish it.

Anyway, quick thought la (better than nothing!!!)

Just wanted post the Monkey Tissue cover that I bought for Ah Seng and myself!!
Hehehehe

One for me, One for Ah Seng


Monkey Seng (acts like big brother)
PS/ Panda trying to squeeze into the picture but... I think a diet is in place *hiak hiak*


The funny thing is Monkey Seng has no tails but my tissue cover monkeys have!!!

Okie, time to start working liao..... More random stuff soon!!

My swollen ankle

Do you know that spiral staircase can be dangerous?

You want proof?
Here's it!!!

*sighhhh*

Fell off the spiral staircase at work -_-"
I think it's probably the most serious sprain I had so far. Usually for sprain, you will ice it and just rest and then you wait....and then you wait somemore.....yes wait.....
But I had to do something about it because I have to go Beijing this coming sunday!!!

Haizz, bai ka and still have to go overseas.

Kaibin they all bought me to this sinseh at Yishun... first time going to a sinseh.
He twisted my ankle around abit and like "push" something back in place and say ok. I was quite surprise that it was relatively painful....but I was wrong -_-"
He started rubbing the areas around my ankle and I had to covered my mouth to stop myself from screaming.

After treatment......

Tadah!!!

This is taken one day after the accident, less swollen already but you can see my feet is quite swollen at the surrounding area. Also, not that my ankle is dirty, the medicine stained my skin abit la!

Had to go back a few more times for treatment and hopefully it'll recover by sunday la.
I want to go shop de le.....

hahaha.... so many pictures of my feet hor...

Okie something "cleaner" and happier....
Ah seng got me a Vday pressie!!

Ipod Touch!!!

Yes yes, I know everyone is using Iphone....but hor we check liao, Ipod is $588 lor...and my HP quite new le.... plus E71 is actually a very good phone...Plus I got the PRETTIEST color of them all...

E71 in Black Steel

Anyway why owe one when you can have two wahahahaha...

Check out my Little "blood" bag + stitch strap.....cutez right

Recently met up with a few sec sch friend, Mable, Qiuxia and Ting Jun.
Mable and were very close back then as we always go church and cell group together. But after JC, we started drifting apart especially when she moved from Bukit batok to punggol. As for Qiuxia, I think we were pretty close in lower secondary school, both of us were in the Track team but we sorta dun hang out anymore. I don't really know Ting Jun as I was never in the same class but I just knew who she was and all. Surprisingly, it was really an enjoyable gathering and we talked so much till like 11plus 12. Hahaha... I really hope that we can meet up more often =)

Sometimes I just feel a little lonely, I feel like I don't have that one good friend anymore. There's no one in particular I really want to just chat when I'm bored, upset or very happy. (alright, got Ah Seng but he's not a she, so he cannot bitch and gossip with me lah....)
I feel that I generally prefer a more personal friendship where it is like more "exclusive".
I don't think I can be really good friends (in my own definition) with people who has just too many other good friends. Am I weird?

But then again, Nicole has alot alot of good friends but she never make me feel like I'm just one of the other good friends, I think she makes everyone feels so too. She don't have to tell me that but she's just there whenever I need someone.

I think it's easier to make friends when you're still schooling and all. When you grow up, everyone is busy with their own life (even if it is rotting at home and doing nothing, it is a legitimate "to-do" things for working adults okie!). Me included....it's just hard to find exciting things to do in Singapore anyway.. LOL

Yea, perhaps the newly open Casino is the most exciting things at the moment but seriously, I do not have the slightest interest in it -_-"
I was, however, quite excited when I heard there's going to be a Victoria's Secret shop at Sentosa but before I could even make my way there... I already heard that it's going to be a wasted trip... so I decided to use my time more wisely (which means lazing at home and shopping online!!)


Hehehe... yes I'm a "online-shoplic" (OSC which only means One Shop Center, WAHAHAHA)

Oh right, shall share some of my recent loots =D

Victoria' Secret Canvas Tote



Marc Jacob's Canvas Tote


Agnes b Little Canvas Tote!!


Hahaha, of course I buy more than just Canvas totes...

In fact these are one of my best loots recently!!!


3 Pairs of boots!!!!
And I paid less than $60 SGD for all 3!!!!

This is what I call POWER Onlineshoplic....HOHOHOHOHO

A Sunday Note of Randomness....

Okie... time to keep up with my "resolutions"....

Mad busy period at work these few weeks. I have so much work to do that I think I'm suppose to work over the weekend but I'm like so in-need of some rotting time at the same time.

Signed up for Sundown Marathon and I am still not running regularly.... -_-"


Anyway, went to Science center with a couple of colleagues yesterday and went to IMM for some foodie and Daiso-shopping. Oooh, I love daiso but yesterday I didnt went crazy...

Got myself these:

2 Piggy PVC pouches.... Kawaii!!!



This is a stencil!!! I got smacked by them for buying this....
They say I 小孩子 -_-" and ask me buy this for what..... *bian zui*

Victoria's Secret is IN SINGAPORE!!!!

Today, Ah Seng was suppose to bring me go Sentosa to check out the Victoria's Secret store. But I heard people say it's damn small and sure to be a disappointment. Sooo.... I decided to go down to Kino to get my first copy of Sweet Jap magazine.... nah...now that I can read Jap...

It's all for the Black Cher Bag that comes with it..... *heehee*

I love the prints but the handles is really abit too short... -_-"

I am sooo going to collect all the other colors.... should I? hmmmm....maybe I should count the number of bags I have now.... got a couple more additions....

Oh yea, I also have this huge bruise on my thigh now...

It's about 6cm long....

I think I'm easily bruised and I'm also very very very chor lor....
I should start "documenting" all my bruises in this blog.... *bo liaoz-ing*

This is another bruise 4 months back...

I think I need to snack and take a nap....tomorrow's monday and back to work again
AAAGGGGRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH..............

2010...

Happy New Year!!!

Actually I'm late already...tomorrow is the FIRST working day of of 2010...*depressing*

Oh well... I don't know why but I just feel that this is going to be an awesome year!!!

First I must set some new resolution:

1) Sleep More
2) Exercise regularly, going to do my sundown marathon, train and compete in lifesaving (hopefully)
3) Blog more too!!
4) To have a tidy room (wahahahahhaa...like real it'll happen but hey never stop wishin' for it, one day it may just come true...)

well I think the biggest achievement I had for 2009 is to finish my graduate diploma in Information Communication Technology... it's tough working and studying...
Especially during exams, I wish I hadn't taken the course up.

But after getting my results....it's worth =D



It's the best results I've ever gotten!!!
Well, it may not be like a super prestigious cert or what but I think it did encourage me to continue to further my education. I'm was thinking if I should take up masters next in 2010 but looking at my new job scope in 2010,it's going to be quite tough. Oh, I'm also very excited abt work too because I think my new RO is someone that I can learn things from. My prayers has been answered!!!

I can't say that 2009 is all good, in fact, I think in terms of work, it hasnt been very good. Had some unhappiness with some ppl at work, sometimes it's really because I'm just too stress juggling with work and studies that I get irritated quite easily >_< needa work on that area too.

Ahh, time to sleep....

Just before I go, some random pictures!!


Prepared these for colleagues during xmas.... I'm still a nice colleague to have =P


And my shopping loots from yesterday!!! Went shopping with Vanessa from 11am till like 9pm!!! GOSH!!!!!

Ok.... super abrupt but yea...going to sign off here...

oh oh oh....I'm addicted to SUDOKU now!!!!